keep me in mind.

Its been the same mantra since July when M dropped the bomb that she's found the one and wants to get married. Kahwin, marriage, hantaran?! As if I don't get enough of this topic in BM class with AGAR, Menjelang Takbir and TBD.
My first reaction when M told me was "O__O"
Truth be told the age gap between us made it such that when she was in KY I was a little tot in primary school then she flew a thousand miles away while I was busy growing up and a month after I enrolled in college, she graduated and returned for good.
Now she's getting married.
So clearly, the vague memories of our childhood are exactly that, vague.
The memories of us in my primary school years are of her in college, poised to fly off to a foreign country, then her packing to leave, then her actually leaving.
The ones of us when I was in secondary school were momentarily glimpses of a sister who was only around some summers to act as my chauffeur. When I went to PC, it was like she was my 'fictional' sister.
The memories I'm making of us now are of cleaning the house for her engagement, surveying wedding boutiques, shopping for the perfect wedding dress, bearing the heat to look for hantarans in Kelantan, trying out her tanjak and picking out a matching sampin...

Its another stage of life, weddings are a cause of celebration right? I wish I had more time to just have my sister as my own. Possessive much. I hope I don't end up next to the row of mak ciks bawling into a handkerchief when he says "Aku terima nikahnya..."